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MKMMA Week 13 — Liberty

Something was mentioned last week on the Go90Grow workshop that I’m participating in. It was a comment that to really be a magnetic, successful networker, I have to radiate confidence and positiveness. The next day, on our MKE webinar, we were challenged to imagine totally giving up on our Definite Major Purpose and notice the heartache that caused. The heartache I experienced was that not achieving my DMP didn’t actually give me much sense of loss. I Knew something was amiss. I started questioning if I needed to up the ante in some way.

Then I noticed on Monday, that I was in a poor-me, depressive funk. I’ve always been prone to going into a dark mood about myself or my life. It suddenly hit me. THAT sort of dark thinking certainly blocks my radiating confidence or success.

Up until now, I really haven’t paid much attention to the Mental Diet, filtering out angry or judgmental reactions. For years I’ve trained myself not to react with harsh judgment or anger to people or situations around me. I’m pretty good at saying, or thinking, “Well isn’t that interesting.”

So as of the First Day of Winter, I’ve started my new Mental Diet. I’m watching for self-disrespect, judgment and negativity. I feel like I’ve turned an important and fascinating corner.

I’m a pianist and I played a lot of music last night at the Christmas Eve service at my church, carols with the congregation and backup for the choir that I direct. Especially while playing a solo piece, I realized that what I have always considered “nerves” is really a lack of trust and respect for my own accomplished musical ability. It’s really hard for me to focus on the music when I’m distracted by judging myself. Playing solo in that service was the first time I noticed that deep undercurrent of self-criticism and cSilverLiberty_OK_220px-Peace_dollar_obverseould say, in the moment, “Well, isn’t that interesting?!”

Today in my morning piano practice, I took a mental stance of respect, trust, and even wonder for all the faculties that go into my playing. I listened, felt, and honored the wonderful conscious and subconscious faculties that serve me. My facility and ease on the keyboard went up several notches, immediately.

On the one hand, applying this new self-vigilant Mental Diet feels like a threat to the foundation of my personality. On the other hand, I sense it is my next step towards a whole new level of accomplishment, confidence, and freedom in all areas of my life.

How interesting and profound that over the last week I also decided to replace the personal pivotal need of “Spiritual Growth” with “Liberty”. Until this very moment I assumed it meant the Liberty of financial abundance. As I write this, I’m realizing that liberation from that lifelong psychic pattern is the key to Liberty in many, many aspects of my life.

I’m ready for the adventure!!

 

annesmasterkey - January 7, 2016

Im sure you are going to have a great adventure. This is a fantastic time of self awareness and changing your old blueprint. Thank you for sharing.

Valeska Harraud - December 27, 2015

Love it!!! You have found your core !!! I am thrilled for you!’ BAM!!!!

mkmmamission - December 27, 2015

Congratulations! I also am a Musician and artist and I can identify with what you have said. I did perform with the inner flow but at times was not comfortable.It is such a great feeling to be connected in all of our activities… great reflection of this connected with Self Confidence. Beautiful and inspiring… Peace and Joy…Believe…Karen

MKMMAwendyht - December 26, 2015

Aloha Lindasue88 :-)) As Dan said, “Well isn’t that interesting?” As a professional singer and particularly as a professional harpist, I’m jumping for joy at your self-realization (from ‘in to out’ and ‘out to in’). Brilliance “in the moment” on Christmas eve and brilliance again in your practice time today! Brava!!!! Like you, I’m finding it really fascinating to put our MKMMA principles to work in my music as well as my specialized kinesiology teaching. WOW! Keep going!
Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love always – all ways wendyht

smithgwaynemkmma - December 26, 2015

Wow. That is so insightful.
My mental diet has been so outwardly focused to avoid negativity I completely forgot about the inward. I felt like you were in my head.
Thank you for a great message.

    lindasue88 - December 26, 2015

    Thanks, Wayne. I don’t know about you, but the inside of the Mental Diet feels WAY more challenging to me. Wishing Godspeed to all of us in our ‘dieting’.

Liane Hack - December 26, 2015

Yes, yes, yes, I love it. I love to see how you apply what you learned so far, I like the fact that you are changing, trying, challenging the person you had defined for yourself. Feel free to live this adventure. This is really beautiful.

    lindasue88 - December 26, 2015

    thanks, Liane. I remembered a few more pieces, so if you have a moment, read the opening of my revised Week 13. It was NARC that started this whole ball rolling. Happy New Year.

mommamccracken - December 26, 2015

Good insight – I am sure we are going to help each other in 2016 – great share

    lindasue88 - December 26, 2015

    Thanks, Pardner!!

masterkeyalangoldberg - December 26, 2015

Thanks for sharing. The Mental Diet makes one aware of how critical we are of ourselves and how being conscious of our thoughts we are able to be kinder to ourselves.

    lindasue88 - December 26, 2015

    Thanks, Alan. For me it means being kinder & also not giving myself the cop-out of feeling insufficient. I have to get to work, with a loving smile. 🙂

Lallah Rowe - December 26, 2015

Your future self will look back at this moment with gratitude. Keep going.

    lindasue88 - December 26, 2015

    Thanks, Lallah. A great nudge to start really getting acquainted with that Future Self. Thanks

dannycl - December 26, 2015

Well Isn’t That Interesting! 🙂 A true Christmas gift of realization. How Blessed you are Linda.
Thanks for sharing.

    lindasue88 - December 26, 2015

    Yup. Quite a New Year’s Kick-Off!, or maybe Kick-Ass??!! 🙂

      dannycl - December 26, 2015

      LOL whichever you prefer.

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