MKMMA Week 9 — Finding Power
In our Master Key course, we are encouraged to keep to a mental diet of no negative thinking. As I looked deeper into that, I wondered about ‘negative thinking’. I understand that to grumble and complain is unproductive negativity. Also, judging other people is another form of unwholesome negativity.
But when I look at some of the issues that concern me in my world, am I thinking negatively when I think or say that they are dangerous or bad? For example, after a lot of study, I am convinced that artificial water fluoridation is a dangerous practice health-wise, that it is also a clear violation of the individual’s right of informed consent. When I say the practice is dangerous, is that being negative? I think not. It is a considered evaluation.
This brings me to the line between observation and emotional reaction. I have a lot of experience and skill as an educator. In an area such as fluoridation, however, I cannot teach as effectively because I become edgy, angry, even combative around the issue. In the grip of that emotion, I lose my clarity of expression. I lose my ability to see my best options for influencing others’ opinion, and I feel extremely tense and uncomfortable.
My search now is to learn to study, observe, and understand; to feel motivation, dedication and even passion for a cause or purpose; and to remain emotionally centered and stable. I know my power comes from a level beyond my emotions or even my intellect, and the only way for me to align with that power is to avoid being overcome by fear, impatience or anger, to avoid being overtaken by negative emotions.
Up until recently, I have tried to control or hide my negative emotions. I’m pretty good at, good Scorpio that I am. My sense is that my power and poise lies way beyond those emotions. I can ‘smell’ what it might feel like to climb above the ’emotional tree line’ to a higher, clearer view. And the way my life is moving now, I bet I will be offered plenty of opportunities to grow into this next experience of personal mastery.